13 April 2014 @ 02:01 pm
Summer Come Sooner  
Some updates about life:
  • I'll be finishing school in a week. Next Wednesday is my final presentation for a solo animation project, Thursday is my final submission date for all my other classes, I have no class on Friday -- after that it's only internship for 6 months. I was kinda bummed that my internship will start right after this semester ended (that means I will only have 3-day break after the long journey). But on the other hand I am kind of excited for the learning experience! (I'm going to be an environment artist, from the entrance test I think it's heavily texture-based so it's going to help a lot for my painting skills?)
  • I used to think that I just want to work for a game/in a game studio but after school, I kind of changed my perception on this? I am leaning more towards illustration and storytelling rather than the production process itself. I am planning to study in another school after I graduated from my current university, but some people I know are making fun of how my process is "going backwards" (because the next school I'm going to only offers diploma for Illustration).
  • My best friends (G and C) are graduating this month! I am very happy that G has scored a well-paying job in Tecmo-Koei. C is still going to complete his missing credits so I'll probably still seem him around in school (even though I am taking internship, I still need to go for the portfolio class). I am very happy that both of my friends have completed their academic journey! Ironically the company G is going to work for is a rival company to the one I am interning for. LOL.
  • I have been seeing a doctor for my issues and I think I am going to look for another one because he is just trying to provide me medicines instead of trying to get to the root of the problem. He even advised me that I should avoid my problems instead of facing them so that I won't have to deal with it. I don't know, maybe it works for other people... but to me, I think I should not do that because if I don't confront the problems, how would I grow stronger?

Some people I know on Twitter are already enjoying their Spring break. How about everyone else here?

Hopefully the Summer would be better!

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[personal profile] richey on April 13th, 2014 11:34 am (UTC)
i'm really looking foward to graduating, but I think I still have two more years ahead of me (I need to check my university credits, but it's on the same page of the class ranking and classes grades, so I just keep looking at my disgraceful grades and forget to do the math to see how long it will take until I graduate, sigh). Our break here in Brazil is just a few days ("holy week", we call it) and it depends on the school. My friend is getting 10 days while I'm just getting 5. I need to use these days to prepare for tests and seminars :( Just to think about the seminars I want to crawl to under my bed.

as for doctors, my psychiatrist just prescribes me meds and asks me how I'm doing on the context of the disorder(s) I have. My therapist usually tells me to go slow, so I don't get overwhelmed by anxiety. The thing is, I don't have any idea of what causes my mental disorders (except for the eating disorder), so get to the root of the problem is just a "?". Avoiding problems is good for some people, but not all. I personally want to get them resolved, but first I need to, well, KNOW what are my problems. Maybe you should get another doctor :3
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Joaru: a private talk[personal profile] radiuju on April 13th, 2014 01:17 pm (UTC)
Oh! I guess maybe the system is different in Brazil? My university is actually in an Asian country but we are following the American curriculum and academic calendar. Thus the term spring and summer...

I am studying a practical major so we don't really have tests except when we happen to take a general education subject (i.e. History or English). But our "finals" can last for about 4 weeks because it's an assignment model. ^^"

Why are the seminars so dreadful tho? :O I imagine them to be... painfully boring? Hahaha. I had seminars in my high school and I usually ended up doodling instead of listening attentively.

I get what you mean... Yeah, I also think that that will work for other people but for my case, I'd love to be able to actually get to the root so it won't happen again. I want to avoid a relapse. I hope that you will actually find what your problems are so you can get to the gut and be without them for good! ><
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[personal profile] richey on April 14th, 2014 03:08 pm (UTC)
We have a different system in Brazil, but actually each university has its own. Some of them give the entire week as the break and some just a few days (and this year we have the world cup here so my university is giving even fewer days, sigh). We have a winter break on July (the entire month) and a summer break starting on December (and it goes until March or February, depending on the school)

My professors just anounce we are having a test and we have it next week y_y makes me so mad.

I hate seminars because I have to talk about things I'm no 100% certain about to people I don't know, so I am always very, very anxious about them. I didn't have any in high school (we didn't had any assigments, just pre-scheduled tests), so I kinda lost my touch.
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Joaru: a private talk[personal profile] radiuju on April 15th, 2014 05:54 am (UTC)
Oh I see! That doesn't sound so bad. My longest break is in December, the so-called winter break, and it lasts only for three weeks. Other than that I usually have a week or two of break in-between terms. This is because I'm in a fast-track, so all my subjects are compressed. In other universities here they usually have about a 3-month break during summer term, and about a month in december. Ahhh. U_U

So you're the one talking in the seminars. xD We have those too but it's more of a presentation I guess, cause we have to pitch projects to lecturers and students. Sometimes they also invite the people from the industry and it's scary too...

Good luck on your test! :) I'm sure you'll do well!
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well-informed doorstop: art[personal profile] muladhara on April 16th, 2014 07:53 pm (UTC)
Mmm, I wanted to work in the games industry, once, but my patience for animating (which is where I wanted to go) sucks balls, so I gave it up (after taking two courses concentrating on animating!) Now I can't really make up my mind what I want to do when I grow up.

Your doctor sucks! His approach is not what he should be doing and all wrong (of course, I don't know what you need to see him for), but medication is used to help, not completely fix problems (uh, except for when it is, but that's not the feeling I get from what you've written here).
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Joaru: playtime / discussion[personal profile] radiuju on April 16th, 2014 08:04 pm (UTC)
Actually there are many things that you can do in games besides animating! :D But yeah, most game companies are looking for animators so I think being an animator kinda paves an easier way to get into game companies.
How old are you now, if you don't mind me asking? I am graduating from uni soon (but I'm much younger than most of my classmates) but I am still quite uncertain about my direction either. In one hand I just want to go my own way but I also want to consider my parents' thoughts and feelings. Growing up is a difficult process...

Yeah, I agree with you. I guess there might be certain cases when medication can actually fix the problems for patients, but for my case, I don't think so because the root of everything is lack of self-esteem (I have inferiority complex especially when it comes to people who are close to me). But instead of trying to advise me, he's just... Telling me to avoid the problem if it's causing me stress. Hahaha. I think I'll just go find another doctor.
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well-informed doorstop[personal profile] muladhara on April 16th, 2014 08:55 pm (UTC)
Oh true, but I wanted to animate, as I've always been interested in it. I just don't have the patience, heh. (Sometimes I make animated icons, but that's my limit these days).
I am the grand old age of thirty three, but I really don't feel like I am.

I am really envious of people who know what they want to do from a young age and stick to that 100%. I have flip-flopped around a lot over the past fifteen years (I wanted to act, till I discovered I was incapable of that, and I've been indecisive ever since). It is OK not to know what you want to do right away after uni, though.

I know about self-esteem problems (got more than a few myself). But honestly that doctor is terrible. I hope you find another one who's much more useful for you :)
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Joaru: peace and love[personal profile] radiuju on April 17th, 2014 04:25 am (UTC)
Ah I see! Haha. Yeah, animation requires a lot of patience. ><

Me too! But I think I am kind of happy that at least I have the freedom to try new things. Some people don't even have that privilege... Ahh. Thank you, your words made me feel a bit relieved! I tend to worry too much about things (my mom often said that I'll really age faster if I keep this on, haha).

Thank you! :)
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well-informed doorstop: final fantasy[personal profile] muladhara on April 19th, 2014 06:42 pm (UTC)
It really does. I was good at it, but the time involved just made me want to claw my face off.

That is true, I hadn't thought of it like that. I'm glad I could say something helpful for you :)
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